The week after..

Davyd is up this week. Hehe.. Enjoy..

24th Birthday

I thought it will be funny to share this. My flatmate took this when i was being pushed up to the stage by my dear friends. I need to blog more...

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Life continues

I am feeling restless even though i went on a holiday trip to Japan and had a long weekend. I have been jam packed my days with shift works and social activities. All i need is to rest and snuggle up with someone in such chill weather. Loving the chill weather anyway.

This post is very much the opposite from the last post. I have decided to move on from that person who takes me for granted. I have given him a second chance and he blew it. Too bad, his loss anyway.

A farewell weekend for Stefan, one of my closest gay friend i ever had! However, this will not be our last goodbye.

Melbourne, here i come again! I am so excited about this trip because i am going with Richard and catching up with friends like Nick. We had some memorable drinking and bitching sessions when Nick was still in Sydney. I should really save up though. Sigh.

Dont leave me this way.

It is hard to get that thought off my mind after the kiss last night. It has been a while that a kiss left me feeling this way. This thought and feeling has been lingering all day. I think my heart is melting.

Season of sickness

I have just became one of the victim. Down with a slight fever and chill. I feel restless. Times like this, i miss my mum more.

I miss you.

The Secret

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Disappointed and Annoyed.

I expect more from people i considered friends. Unfortunately a few of them are a let down. Friendship doesnt work one-way but two-way. As friends, both of us need to make an effort to be there for each other. Friends need to make time for friends. Perhap those people that i thought were my friends werent.

Sometime the anger in me get to me and i feel like taking it out on someone. Someone i dont care about. Unfortunately i cant do it on my friends or people i considered friends. Anyway i dont get mad at someone for more than a few hours or at most a day.

At work, i get annoyed by some of the voices that got through to me. I dont know why but it just get to me. I often roll my eyes when i first hear them on the phone. I then sound like a prick. This often happened to people that doesnt understand simple English. Sometimes they even put up an attitude when they simply can't express their problem in simple English. I will just keep quiet and then "uhuh..uhuh..what?..uhuh?"

Confused John Boy

Since my last post, i had been back in Kuala Lumpur for Chinese New Year. A few incidents and events had happened since together with some thoughts. I finally took some time tonight to make a post.

I am confused with the dating scene. Whats the "to do" and "not to do" with the potential guy? Is it wrong to be doing what i feel like doing? Why do guys back off after the first date with me? Did i do something wrong? Sometimes i wonder.

I know i should feel good and be confident about myself but i just cant with the rejections i got. I have been single since forever. I just cant help myself but to think "Whats wrong with me?". I am worry that i am turning into a bitter single.

Sigh.

The Year of Boar

Yes! It is the Chinese New Year and the year of boar. I have completed the chinese calender cycle twice, which mean i am turning 24! It does seem that yesterday i was only 21. I will be blogging from my hometown, Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia from Friday onwards. I am so looking forward to the trip back. The good old days in Kuala Lumpur when things were simple and fun.

Sydney has become a bore for me especially with the aussie men. From what i can remember, i dont think i attract any aussie men anymore. Maybe i have outdone myself here in Sydney. I need to move to a completely different city like Melbourne or London perhaps. My friends would know i have a thing for Brit men, so London will be the ideal city for me. I do find that i get along with Brits quite well. I am not dissing every aussie men here. No hard feelings. I always thought that this model (picture above) is hot! I just found out he is British as well! James Penfold is hot with his sexy blue eyes and lips.

Getting paid for my hard work make me feel good. Yay! Even though i would like to splurge on something but i think i will put it aside into my savings. I want to be able to live off myself in a year time. Perhaps a property and a car soon in the near future. However more working means less socializing time.

I could have been Straight!

Although i have been going for training at work, i end up having a blast right at the end of the weekend. It was Australian Day on Friday. I was invited to hang with Stephan and co at Hyde Park during the afternoon. It was a very nice day and everyone was out in the park. Actually i done this 3 years ago on Australian Day but i dont remember it was for this occassion. Couple of hot shirtless straight guys are out and about. Forbidden fruit!

Both Friday and Saturday nights were the usual. Stonewall followed by Midnight Shift. On Saturday night, i was feeling depress after i saw and greeted Michael. I am such an idiot trying to sort out the signal he is sending to me. Does he like me or not? That frustrate me a lot. I decided to call it a night at 1.30am because i dont want my frustration annoy people around me. Sorry, Lance.

I woke up early for an afternoon movie session with Fin. Jessica got me free tickets to see "The Last King of Scotland". I was supposed to bring someone as a date. Michael was not free (maybe he was not keen at all). I asked Fin because we have not done much other than hanging out at Stonewall. He also broke up and got back with his bf on the same day. The movie was great with a few gruesome scenes. I cant stand the scottish accent.

After work, i went to Amanda and Kim's farewell party at Mirian's house at taylor square. They are Stephan's friends. Since they are girls, i got to meet a few straight boys. One in particular, Henrik, a metrosexual Swedish hot guy commented on my belt, shirt, bag, and shoe. It was nice being noticed especially by a straight guy (Maybe he is bi!) I decided to go out with the straight crowd to King Cross since i have not been to a straight venue for a long while. Stephan and me were the only gay boys in the gang.

First stop was the Empire. Then Dragonfly. I was dancing my arse off as usual until a swedish girl hit on me. I told her i am gay. Henrik was impressed that i could have scored her if i am not gay. The quote of the night was "I will go wherever you wanna go". Henrik said that when i asked if he wanna join Stephan at Stonewall. I should have say, how about my place? Wouldnt that make things interesting?

Aviators Obsession

Things Just Got Better!

Indeed. Unexpectedly, i receievd a voicemail from the company i went for interview and trial yesterday. It just made my day. I cant say how thankful i am for getting a casual job. Although it isnt anything great, i still appreciate the opportunity to work and earn something for myself. I truly do not want to live off my dad for much longer.

I also just got an email from my research supervisor today. He mentioned that the QCM indow has been fixed and will be shipped to us next week. Yay! However, i have not written the report i should have uring my 2-months break. I should get this done this weekend. Things definitely getting better. I hope my love life will pick up soon too.

Motivation Is All I Need.

This is true. My motivation to get things started is very low. I always get distracted being online. I need someone to watch over me while i get things done. I feel like a baby. Maybe all i need is to focus on someone. However, i have yet to find that person who like my full attention.

Counting backward. I met up with a cute young boy (Michael) today for coffee. Undecided on where we would like our conversation online to head towards, i proposed to meet for coffee. He is a indecisive young man. During our coffee, we both were shy and trying to make small talks. However, he did showed interest in knowing me. After we parted, i took the courage to write him a text mentioning that i think he is cute as a sign of interest and asked if he would like to do something together soon. I was actually not expecting a reply from him because i usually dont. He replied saying that it will be good and suggested next week. I guess i got myself a date next week. Yay for now!

Yesterday it was a HOT day. I only had 6 hours sleep the previous night because i went out. Stephan came over to my rooftop to sunbake while i hide at the corner of the roof chatting onlline. I am avoiding of becoming BLACK! Hehe..Later in the arvo, i went to meet this guy (Adam) that i been chatting to for the past few days for an icy drink. He chatted me up one night on Gay.com and we had a very decent conversaton. We still do. I didnt realise it was the guy i have checked out before during my night-outs or walking in the city. What a small world! He reminded me of Seth Green. We talked about Malaysia a lot. However, i am not sure where will this head. Friendship perhaps!

As for the night, i went to see Madeleine Peyroux at the State Theatre. The country-blue opening act from Melbourne was a dump. He was putting me to sleep with a headahe. How is that possible? Fortunately, the sound of Madeleine has saved the night. The band and her were absolutely fantastic. I was smitten by the French jazz songs she sung. How i wish i can cuddle up with someone in the theatre. I think the concert could have been better if they play at the Basement. It will be more intimate and cosy.

The most exciting thing that happened to me during the week is the job interview and trial. I am hoping they give me that job. Although it is just some job at a call-centre with low pay, i still find it exciting enough. I pretty much need the cash anyway. Fingers crossed but it has been 3 working days since my trial. Sigh.

My Trip in Melbourne

Night 0/Day 1
Everyone thinks i am insane to take a bus down to Melbourne. Due to the short of cash and extra time i have, i am willing to take a nearly 12 hours return bus trip to Melbourne. The bus ride was smooth till it stopped on the side of the highway at 7.30am. I woke up and thought we might have a flat tyre or some engine problem. Unfortunately i was right when the bus driver came back with the flat tyre announcement. He was trying to get it fixed for the past 20mins before the announcement. He mentioned that we are 45 minutes away from our destination and GreyHound is sending down another bus down from Melbourne because he can't unscrew the tight bolts. All the passengers and i were stranded on the side of the highway for 2 hours before we saw a mechanic truck arrived instead of a bus. What a bullshit! At the end, the mechanic fixed the flat tyre and we were back on the road. I reached Melbourne at 10.30am, which was 2.5hr later than the scheduled time of arrival.


The weather was fantastic when i stepped out from Southern Cross Station. I waited for Ryan, a friend from Sydney who i will be staying with during my stay in Melbourne. I was also surprised that there are more trams in Melbourne than i can remember from my last trip 5 years ago. My first activity of the day was to refresh myself at Ryans' before heading out to meet Kenneth (Danish friend) near Melbourne Central for lunch. We wondered off to Southbank and found ourself having lunch at Crown Casion food court. I had this amazingly huge and tasty hawaiian chicken burger with seasoned chips. Yum but i was so full after. Since it was Kenneth's day off. He decided to show me around. We took a walk to check out Docklands, the next harbourside area. There was this odd art piece of a cow stuck on a leaveless tree. The ground was also numbered, which runs from the stadium tracks nearby.

I also got to check out Kenneths' place at Flemington before heading to South Yarra. It was a lovely 2 bed-room townhouse in the suburbia. Of course, i was at South Yarra for Chapel Street and Commercial Road, which are renowned for shopping and gay area respectively. I decided not to go into any shops on my first day in Melbourne because i did not want to splurge yet. By the time we finished our chilled drinks at Gloria Jeans on a warm sunny day with occasionally cool breeze, it was time for dinner. We wandered back to the city to meet his boyfriend, Tomasz and Ryan for dinner at Red Tongue Cafe. The area was very Newtown-like. The caesar salad i had was average with too much anchovies. Since everyone except me have to work the next day, i decided to rest early and call it a night.

Day 2
The itinerary for the day was meeting up with Eason, a Malaysian guy who i only met once in Sydney. Before showing me around in Melbourne, we had lunch at a shanghainese restaurant. Again, nothing fantastic but just average chinese set lunch. However, the day ended up with us doing a lot of window shopping along Lt Collin St and Collin St. I took a break during midway of the shopping trip because i promised to meet a guy (Matt) i chatted from Gay.com. He took me to Section 8, a licensed cartwheel cafe in a old parking lot along a lane-way. Melbourne is famous for such quirkiness. The conversation with Matt was interesting and decent like our previous first conversation online. After that, i met up with Eason again but this time his boyfriend was with us. We had tea snack at Chilli Padi, a Malaysian cafe. I also managed to meet a few of Eason's friends (2 Muslim-Malaysian girls) from Perth at Max Brenner. It was quite interesting when some Malay words were used in our conversation. My dinner was some chinese take-away from a food court. I was invited to have a few drinks at Kenneths' before heading out. I finished his half full Swedish Christmas drink containing cognac. It was 1am when Tomasz and i decided to head out to Peel. I was told by a few friends that Peel was very interesting and fun.

I found Peel interestingly fun and trashy in some points. They have separate sections for different music and ambience (the lounge for chill-out, the trashy pop remixed for trashy dance, the house/trance style for real clubbers). For those horny gay men, they have a whole floor dedicated to cruising and sex, which is known as the back-room. I spent most of my night out dirty dancing with Tomasz and his friend, Sam to the trashy pop music. It was already 5am ish when i crashed at Tomaszs'.

Day 3
I woke up having a slight hangover and a desire for greasy unhealthy food. After refreshing myself, Ryan suggested we should take a walk around the botanical garden and along the Yarra river before we end up wasting the perfect day outside. The garden was far more better than Sydney's. The river bank was the perfect spot for barbecues and picnics. By the time we finished the walk, our stomachs were crying for food.We headed to Southbank and i got myself parmagina chicken snitzel with salad to satisfy my hangover desire. I decided to ring Brad, a Sydney friend that just recently moved here. We all met up at a bar along the river at Southbank for a few drinks in the late afternoon. It was very nice to spend the day like such after a night out especially we got to cruise on the hot bartender, Paul from Germany.

The highlight of the night was more drinks and dancing at various clubs. First off, it was Exhange at 9.30pm. The drag show was fantastic with fabulous boys as back-up dancers. We also complimented a very cute boy. We told him that he looks like Ashton Kusher. He then replied that Ashton is hot and he himself is not. We told him we definitely think he is. His smile just lighten up the room and me. I went all shy and looked away for a moment when Brad was doing the talking.

Next stop, it was the AussieBum show at Market. It was like Arq in Sydney but with a nice lounge to chill on the second level. How can you miss such a show? Hot guys in hot trunks! I then went to Peel with Kenneth and Tomasz after, leaving Brad and Ryan behind.



Day 4
It seemed like a routine that i came home to Ryans' in the morning from Kenneth & Tomaszs' again. Ryan and i planned to hit the beach and stroll along the market at St Kilda if the weather was good. It definitely was and i spent my first half of my afternoon there. The next half involved swimming in the pool, spa and afternoon nap at Ryans'. This night i was craving for pizza and Ryan brought me to Smokehouse at South Yarra. They are one of the best pizza i ever had. Very unique pizzas they had. Tandori chicken with yogurt. Weird mix, isnt it? I think it was a perfect way to spend a sunday minus the crap service at the cafe we did lunch.

DAY 5
After catching up with Matt over morning coffee at a cafe on a laneway, it was time to shop! Shop! Shop! Shop! I hardly had any cash left in my bank account when i bought everything i had my eyes on. Little collin street to Collin street to Crown Casino to Chapel street. Thats where i went for my shopping. I was very pleased with my shopping but i wish i have more cash or maybe not. Hehe..

By the time i knew it, i was leaving Melbourne. I am missing everything Melbourne has to offer. I will be back.

Going down to ....

Victoria, of course! That's where this hunk comes from. I am taking my chance and see if i come back with a hunk myself. Kidding..Well, the last time i was in melbourne was 5 years ago and hence another visit is due. I hardly remember much about melbourne except some fanstatic shopping, Salt club (where Madison Avenue filmed her music clip) and Crown Casino (where i won hundred in 5 nights). Those big flames shooting up in the air along the riverside was briallant while we having a fanstatic meal at Crown. It was winter too.

Summertime in Melbourne. Here i come.

Passport to....

I just have to note my comment on Malaysian Government services. Slow as a turtle. I sent my passport to the High Commissioner for Malaysia for renewal. I requested the non-microchip passport which i have been told by the staff that it will takes only several weeks. I was shocked and impressed that i will be able to get it so soon. However to my disappointment, i received a letter of confirmation from the High Com. stating that it will take approximately 8 weeks to process it. I couldnt really care less or more about it since i dont really need the passport so soon.

As we are approaching the chinese new year (I might be heading back to Kuala Lumpur for the occasion), i still have not receive my new passport. Hence, i rang them last Thursday to check on the status of the process. The lady had to take my number and told me they will ring me back tomorrow. Tomorrow? Cant you do it now or later and get back to me? Today i decided to take the intiative to ring them again as i didnt get any call from them on Friday (expected). Finally got through to someone who can look through the system (or file cabinets coz i dunno what they are using and it took like 3-5 mins) while i am holding on the other end of the phone. Apparently it is all done and ready. Why cant they just send it earlier? Inefficient i would say.

The Cyberworld for The Gays

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Sydney Gay Life

After spending 4.5 years in sydney especially the sydney gay scene occasionally, i am tired of it and find it a total bore. I think this usually applies to every major city when you spend a period of time living there. On the first Friday night of 2007, i didnt really feel like going out drinking or dancing especially along Oxford St. However, i ended up meeting this guy, Jackson from the gay online community and having a drink with him at a bar before heading off to Oxford St to meet his friends. He is only 19yo making me feel so much older. I wasnt sure if we clicked for more. Anyhow, it is always good to have more friends.

After rejecting the invitation to Havana Club (a straight club) with his friends, i bumped into my flatmate and friends at a coffee house. We got into talking about the love life of a single.

D: How long have you been single?
J: 3 years.
D: Why do you think you been single for so long? Do you think there is something wrong with you?
J: Dont ask me, ask the guys i dated. I would like to think i am fine.

The conversation sumed it up. Why do people think there is something wrong with us being singles after a period of time? I know that a lot of singles are looking out for their great love but we just couldnt find a match. Most of the time, the guy dont find us as their potential partner. Love always is a two-way street. Nevertheless, gay guys have high expectation and hence make it harder to pair up a match. Am i happy being single? Yes and No. Yes because i dont have to oblige to anyone or commitment. No because i feel lonely sometimes and want to give my attention/love to someone.